There were three of them...R..............B........A..............I grew up with them.went to the same prep school,same high school..............and with one to the same college................but this is not really about reminiscing about school days...............There was only one thing common to all three of them...........they were extremely creative................i never even came close .....................but it was fascinating to watch...............even as a kid....................let me tell you a bit about the three as i know it . All of you who think you know them now may not believe me and i do not blame you for they are nothing like what they were once upon a time.
A was the quiet creator,painfully under control,maybe unaware of what he could be...........when he was solving a math problem or he was with a pencil and an empty canvass.................he got carried away...just for a few moments before he became bashfully conscious again............and if you were observant................you would see what i mean.
B was the confident first boy................always focused,the teacher's favorite.........what he lacked in brilliance he compensated with dilligence.It was difficult for me to really like him.......because i thought that he was too selfish just as all first boys are............but now of course i have changed my opinion..............because i know everybody is selfish.........and it doesn't have to be a bad thing.
And then there was R........embodiment of my first concept of brilliance........the most intelligent......and too careless about it.......he didn't care to belong..........something which infuriated people and this was precisely why they were drawn to him........you could be angry at him.............but you could never really hate him............and in the end you had to confess you loved him...........not because you could understand him.............but because you didn't.
Then high school was over and we all went our separate ways.............bound only by the past......
............it is hard to understand why things happened the way they did......it is easier to answer what happened.
A succumbed to control.........never to fully recover......all that remains of him are uncomfortable silences at the mention of his name when old classmates get together.
B took the path less traveled..............in a determined way.......like he had always been.
R the poet.........always living in a world............somewhere between our reality and his.............never fully being able to belong to either.............like he had always been.
I can't say if they are happy now............I hope they are...................even mad people deserve to be happy. But it's hard to tell of happiness.
We started out together...........and then diverged never to meet again................and now we are so far apart in every way possible.......it seems incredible even to believe that we were ever together..........but we were................for ten years.......
And then there was R........embodiment of my first concept of brilliance........the most intelligent......and too careless about it.......he didn't care to belong..........something which infuriated people and this was precisely why they were drawn to him........you could be angry at him.............but you could never really hate him............and in the end you had to confess you loved him...........not because you could understand him.............but because you didn't.
Then high school was over and we all went our separate ways.............bound only by the past......
............it is hard to understand why things happened the way they did......it is easier to answer what happened.
A succumbed to control.........never to fully recover......all that remains of him are uncomfortable silences at the mention of his name when old classmates get together.
B took the path less traveled..............in a determined way.......like he had always been.
R the poet.........always living in a world............somewhere between our reality and his.............never fully being able to belong to either.............like he had always been.
I can't say if they are happy now............I hope they are...................even mad people deserve to be happy. But it's hard to tell of happiness.
We started out together...........and then diverged never to meet again................and now we are so far apart in every way possible.......it seems incredible even to believe that we were ever together..........but we were................for ten years.......
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