Missing Presidency ..............Again!

I am listning to Anjan Dutta and somehow i am transported back in time to Presidency College.............Going through the morning classes and after the fourth period going to the canteen...................endless cups of tea............me ,madhubanti,bonbon,souditi,tanmoyda,didi,madhurima,rito....................one incident i clearly remember...............we were talking as usual about everything under the sun from politics to shah rukh khan.............it was january..................a few days before milieu..............so a couple of ex students had come down and they were talking about the times they had in presidency.......................and there were these two first year students...............and they were talking about the injustice of the current left administration...what could be done to rectify it............one of them was so excited he actually pounded on the wooden desk to make his point....................and one of the alumni turned,looked and smiled................he must have seen something of himself five years back in that kid .................how all those ideals he had believed in so ardently had given way to more mundane and immediate concerns like salary,bad boss..............

now that he has some time.......................he is content just to reminisce.................it's like Bernard Shaw had said"the old soldiers carry chocolates and the young ones carry bullets".
That's what i don't love about growing up....................the urgent things takes precedence over important things..............but whatever urgent may not be most important..............

Miss all those things,the canteen,the Derozio building,baker building,geology rock,the bookshops,the frenzy before milieu,the disappointment after it was over......................in retrospect how could it have been so perfect?

Recollections

I woke up this morning..................................looked outside my window and it was all grey except for some yellow leaves.................i had to study............my exams are close.......but somehow i couldn't concentrate..............in fact this has been so for a few weeks now.................i am too tired to think why.........................i went out to College Mall...................had to get a blanket before the winter catches up..................now i have two and yet i feel cold.......................is it really the weather?it has to be.............then i chanced upon a black trench coat..................i tried it on.........................to nobody's surprise and least of all mine......................i looked pretty.........................so i bought it...............i knew i could have done without it...............................but at that moment i think i had to buy it.

I went to the post office to get stamps................i had to write those letters to mummum...................i was walking past this tree..................and i don't know why i was reminded of the path that i used to take from school to home.............i could see it as vividly as if i was walking on it.............i hoped that it hasn't changed much...................but of course i am wrong....i know it has......................it's been so long........................almost everything changes in 6 years....................

It's amazing when i think about how things happen.................think of all the probabilities that had to be multiplied for me to have come to this moment.it is infinitesimally small..............think how many things could have gone otherwise which didn't..................this can be traced back to infinity!so now that i have come to this moment it seems almost criminal to waste it.....................have to answer for so many wasted forces........................but i'll be damned if i know how not to waste it.

That day in my micro review class i could write down 4 lines of a poem which rhymed...............i was almost grateful that the lecture was so boring that i could think of those four lines.i rushed home and sat down to write some more....................but the words just wouldn't come..............it was a false alarm!

But i'll wait...................i know they'll come.they have to.The law of probabilities, however feeble, must hold.