I woke up this morning..................................looked outside my window and it was all grey except for some yellow leaves.................i had to study............my exams are close.......but somehow i couldn't concentrate..............in fact this has been so for a few weeks now.................i am too tired to think why.........................i went out to College Mall...................had to get a blanket before the winter catches up..................now i have two and yet i feel cold.......................is it really the weather?it has to be.............then i chanced upon a black trench coat..................i tried it on.........................to nobody's surprise and least of all mine......................i looked pretty.........................so i bought it...............i knew i could have done without it...............................but at that moment i think i had to buy it.
I went to the post office to get stamps................i had to write those letters to mummum...................i was walking past this tree..................and i don't know why i was reminded of the path that i used to take from school to home.............i could see it as vividly as if i was walking on it.............i hoped that it hasn't changed much...................but of course i am wrong....i know it has......................it's been so long........................almost everything changes in 6 years....................
It's amazing when i think about how things happen.................think of all the probabilities that had to be multiplied for me to have come to this moment.it is infinitesimally small..............think how many things could have gone otherwise which didn't..................this can be traced back to infinity!so now that i have come to this moment it seems almost criminal to waste it.....................have to answer for so many wasted forces........................but i'll be damned if i know how not to waste it.
That day in my micro review class i could write down 4 lines of a poem which rhymed...............i was almost grateful that the lecture was so boring that i could think of those four lines.i rushed home and sat down to write some more....................but the words just wouldn't come..............it was a false alarm!
But i'll wait...................i know they'll come.they have to.The law of probabilities, however feeble, must hold.
I went to the post office to get stamps................i had to write those letters to mummum...................i was walking past this tree..................and i don't know why i was reminded of the path that i used to take from school to home.............i could see it as vividly as if i was walking on it.............i hoped that it hasn't changed much...................but of course i am wrong....i know it has......................it's been so long........................almost everything changes in 6 years....................
It's amazing when i think about how things happen.................think of all the probabilities that had to be multiplied for me to have come to this moment.it is infinitesimally small..............think how many things could have gone otherwise which didn't..................this can be traced back to infinity!so now that i have come to this moment it seems almost criminal to waste it.....................have to answer for so many wasted forces........................but i'll be damned if i know how not to waste it.
That day in my micro review class i could write down 4 lines of a poem which rhymed...............i was almost grateful that the lecture was so boring that i could think of those four lines.i rushed home and sat down to write some more....................but the words just wouldn't come..............it was a false alarm!
But i'll wait...................i know they'll come.they have to.The law of probabilities, however feeble, must hold.
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